Evading the inevitable until it's too late.?

You certainly have been through a lot. I read it. All of it. I'm really sorry to hear what you have been going through lately. You dont deserve it, and I am sure your grandparents are very proud. I dont want you to feel like this. I want you to know that Life is Beautiful and definitely worth living. Dont give up. There are so many things you have to try still. Please dont give up, you are not alone. I care about you and you will see that soon everything will be ok.